After facing a series of disappointments with potential partners—one abruptly backing out, another disappearing, and a third leaving me unsatisfied—I began to question if polyamory was truly for me. Perhaps I should suppress my newfound persona, which I cherish, and revert to being a traditional wife who lacks interest in sexual experiences?

However, I have never contemplated restricting my husband. His ability to seek intimacy outside our marriage has been incredibly beneficial for both of us. It seems to have resolved our primary issue: his feeling of being starved for my attention. With him receiving affection from others, the pressure has lifted. I can now pursue my interests without the worry of neglecting him or upsetting him with my adventures. But what truly brings me joy? Do I genuinely desire external sexual encounters? Am I even concerned?

This was my mindset when my husband suggested once more that we engage in a three-way